I'm in awe of God's timing.
He has really been showing me this week that I can trust Him.
My husband's cousin, Richard, passed away this last week. I only met him once. While I was very sad for my husband and his side of our family, his death affected me in a very different, personal (albeit selfish) way. Richard was a Type 1 Diabetic and only 31 yrs old. I'm sure you can all imagine where my mind went with that one.
The enemy was really using this to fill me with fear. I was really struggling and crying out to God. Was I doing enough to keep Faith as safe as possible?
I have been having a terrible time with Faith's blood sugar these past few weeks (months?). I was sure her a1c was going to be something absurd, like 15, or something. I was so upset over her blood sugar, that I'd sent poor Dr Casas a ridiculously long email lamenting over my lack of control over her morning blood sugars.
This was all adding up to one seriously anxious, fearful me.
The next day we had Faith's 3 month Endo appointment. Instead of Dr C threatening to take Faith away from me because I was the worst D mom EVER (like he had in my nightmares the night before), we got great news! Despite all the trouble we'd had over the past few months, her a1c was still great! I can't tell you the relief that washed over me.
That night I had an orientation for my college algebra class. During class the instructor stopped MID SENTENCE to exclaim (to me), "Wow, you look REALLY tired", before resuming lecturing without skipping a beat.
Wow. Thanks. If you only knew.
Despite the good news I'd gotten at Dr. C's office earlier that day, I was still in a funk.
As I was walking out of my algebra class, I got an email from my friend, Margie. She is the Executive Director of Tyler Type One, and one of the first people I met after Faith was diagnosed. She and her family have become very important to me.
She had been looking through her desk THAT DAY and found the sheet of paper that she had written our info on when Dr C had called to notify her of our diagnosis. She scanned it and sent me a picture of the page. She said she just grabs whatever scrap of paper she can reach when he calls, and our info "just happened" to be written on her dad's ministry letterhead! Her dad is someone that I've grown to love very much over this past year. He has been such an encouragement to us.
I could not have anticipated how emotional seeing that would make me. I immediately started bawling. (If only the professor could see me then...he'd have really thought I'd lost it...)
It was just another small affirmation that God has been in this from the beginning and will continue to carry us the rest of the way.
It was amazing. Like God had sent me the email himself!
The next day we had our Tyler Type One support group. This month we had a panel of veteran type 1 families answering questions and encouraging us newbies with their stories. One of them shared that their dad was an 87 year old type 1 diabetic that was in pretty great health.
I SO needed to hear that this week!!
After the meeting, a friend handed me a box of infusion sets. She had no idea, but I was down to my last one waiting for a shipment to come in! The next morning, Faith's infusion set got pulled out causing me to have to put her last one in and the shipment didn't come in like it was supposed to. God knew that and sent me a box the night before!
How's THAT for perfect timing?
He really is faithful, you know?
We sang this song at church this morning and it really spoke to me:
King of Glory by Third Day